Psalm 46:5 ♡ CMP
No matter what I do, the thought always comes back 😞
"Hit me my thesis is due in 12 hours and I haven’t started it"
"Hit me I have a final in an hour and I didn’t study"
"Hit me I’ve been on a 24 hour drinking binge and I’m invincible"
"Hit me. You’re a university vehicle and I’ll get free tuition."
"Hit me I feel like a failure anyway"
Sick of constantly feeling let down and unimportant and unheard. Sick of feelings like my wants aren’t important. Sick of feeling this way.
I get so emotional whenever people talk to me about family. I’ve never had a “family”. I’ve always just been surrounded by people who constantly abuse one another. I never had that childhood filled with memories because mommy and daddy were always too busy fighting, doing drugs, or weren’t home. I was forced to grow up at a young age. I never had those birthdays or Christmas’. I never had those family dinners every night. I never had none of that. No bonding. Nobody taught me what love was, I had to teach that to myself. So when I’m around a bunch of other peoples family, I tend to get uncomfortable. I cry. I’m quiet because all I can think about is why my family wasn’t like every other family.
I hate going to sleep balling my eyes out.
you deserve someone who isn’t embarrassed to love you and tells all their friends about you and saves your selfies, whether they’re good or bad to look at when they miss you and loses sleep to talk to you and tells you how much they love you and how beautiful you are all the time and i really hope you find that one day because you deserve to be loved